My kid is going though huge struggles right now, we're trying to find the correct medication adjustment for him. It's tough, and being away from home was hard on him, but he did great. I'm so proud.
Sir gave me a writing assignment late last week that I missed the deadline on, luckily he was u dee standing with everything that was going on and gave me a few days to finish it. I had to write about weather or not I should keep this graphic and why:
I decided that I needed to keep it. It reminds me that my chronic pain condition isn't a little thing, it's a big huge thing. It robs me of so much, time, energy, self-worth. In the same breath it motivates me, makes me realize that if I can handle all of that, I can make it through anything. It reminds me that it's more than just pain, that I shouldn't let others down play it, and that I shouldn't either. It inspires me to live the life I want in spite of the pain and all that goes with it.
I am not an invalid, far from, but I am also not superwoman. There is a lot I deal with daily, weekly, for years and years. I need to learn to take care of myself before I can take care of others. So that's what I wrote. I haven't gotten any feedback yet, but I'm sure I will soon.
Another flare up of pain started while we were away, so I am medicating and trying to remember self care. Sir did a seminar with other Doms and got some great ideas about how to keep our dynamic strong while I'm flaring, and I'm happy to say that the ideas have been wonderful so far. He has commanded more respect, and kept me in line better than in years. It's like he's no longer afraid to demand the service and respect that he is due. It has made my self esteem soar and made this flare up easier to deal with.
Anyway, this has been terribly disjointed. I'm so out of practice writing. I'll try to be around more, miss it when I'm not here!
We miss you too!
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